The screw upApril 24, 2011
Yesterday I was just super depressed. I’ve been feeling in a funk for the past few days. I think it’s because my ankle has been acting up, which always freaks me out as I have had multiple surgeries on it, gotten the all clear to run for the doctor, but it hasn’t been “right” it seems since an injury almost 10 years ago. So I always go into a mental tizzy asking if I reinjured it or damaged the bone that was repaired. I’ve been debating not running, but running doesn’t seem to exacerbate it, plus I really need to train for my race. I am however going to make an appointment with my orthopedic surgeon for a check up.
So what did I do in the most knowing and mostly planned manner? Yesterday I woke up and ate a healthy breakfast- one egg, one egg white, one piece of multigrain toast, coffee with milk. Then I did my Jillian Michaels cardio resistance work for 50 minutes. Then a healthy lunch — turkey bacon blt, one piece of string cheese, apple. And then for snacks and dinners throughout I had many: cookies, bacon wrapped dates, mini pigs in blankets, marshmellows, a plate of pasta (at least it was whole wheat), and ice cream bon bons. I ate because I was depressed and wanted to make myself feel better by eating, even though logically I knew it wouldn’t matter and I would feel worse. Total: about 2,900 calories. And yes, I tracked it all on daily plate! Every stupid marshmellow!
Hopefully I will burn it off on today’s long run.
I weighed in at 189.4 yesterday and decided not to weigh in today because I didn’t want to unnecessarily freak with a short term water gain. I’ll weigh in tomorrow and use the heavier of tomorrow’s weight and Saturday’s weight as my “official” weight.