Archive for October, 2009

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Way Off Track, But Feeling Okay

October 28, 2009

For some reason, I felt compelled to just sit around and eat.   Wow, have I eaten.   Cupcakes, cookies, yogurt smoothies, ice cream, large bowls of steel cut oats with sugar, popcorn, thai food.

I am afraid to step on the scale.

I spend so much time thinking about food that I want, planning what I might eat and going out of my way to get certain foods.  What’s interesting is that I don’t even like a lot of the food once it’s on my plate and I don’t eat the entire thing.   The cupcakes?   Ate the frosting, tossed the rest.  Ice cream, get sick of eating it halfway through an ice cream pop.   Thai food?   Take out never tastes that good.   I end up eating half or less.    Yet I can never seem to remember that in the planning stages.   And I eat a lot of calories, waste a lot of money and become overly preoccupied with food.   So I took a picture of a half-eaten cupcake that I tossed in the trash and have vowed to make myself look at it before deciding whether I want to go out of the way to pick up and pay $2 apiece for cupcakes I don’t finish.   I am posting a cupcake in the garbage picture for an additional reminder.cupcake

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Sick

October 23, 2009

I have a terrible sore throat and I am exhausted.   I am taking the day off from work today.   I have not worked out in three days.   I also have a tendency to overeat when I have a sore throat or a non-stomach-related virus.   I don’t know what it is — watching a lot of television (which I tend to associate with eating), boredom, liking the feeling of cold or hot foods slide down my throat?

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I lost 50 pounds!!!!!!!!

October 16, 2009

50 pounds gone.   50.8 to be exact.   I’m at 203.2 this morning!

I updated my stats and my goals .  (Not yet reflecting 50 pounds as Monday is my official weigh day.).

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6000 calorie burn

October 11, 2009

Taking inspiration from the Biggest Loser, my time at Fitness Ridge , and Hadley I am going to try to do a “Biggest Loser”-type day where I eat 1200 calories and burn 6000 calories. I am going to wear my heart rate monitor all day to monitor.

I put it on at midnight tonight for a full 24 hour monitor (other than showering). Not sure if I am going to leave it on while I sleep.

Wish me luck!

12:08 a.m. – 12 calories burned, 5,988 calories to go.

Updated – After a relatively hardcore day (4.5 mile walk outside, 1 hour pounding it out (aka running as much as possible on the treadmill, a spin class, a yoga class, 35 minutes on the elliptical and 25 minutes of circuits) I burned 4350.   I am going to try again.   It was a good workout though and a good way to challenge myself.

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Weigh in Catastrophe

October 6, 2009

Ok, well maybe catastrophe is a bit strong.   209.6 pounds — I gained 4.2 pounds in one day!   And I knew most of it was water, but I felt pissed and kind of devastated.

But today I am back to 206.2.   Hopefully on my way back down.

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Dancing the Nights Away

October 4, 2009

So my supposed flu was actually nothing at all.

I went to a wedding celebration  last night at this very posh venue in Chelsea.   It was a lot of fun.   I put on a silk dress, did my makeup and hit the dance floor.

When I caught a glimpse of myself in the bathroom mirror, I was happy to look  – it’s been a long time since I have felt this way, but I felt like I looked really good!

Of course diet is off track.   Not so much from eating, but from the glasses upon glasses of wine and champagne I consumed at the wedding and at other events this weekend.

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Pushing through the pain

October 1, 2009

Weight today: 205.4 (lowest yet!)

So in the past few hours I have had developed: 1) swine flu (of course), 2) food poisoning, or 3) some unknown but utlimately minor flu-like/stomach related ailment.   Tune in tomorrow for the resolution of my not-so-mysterious ailments!

I feel wiped out!  

On the plus side, I did manage to stick to 1,500 calories yesterday.   I thought of it like jogging — there’s is usually some point in the first half mile of my now 2 mile treadmill jog where I think “ugh, not feeling this today.”  But I promise to at least go one mile.   When I get to a mile I usually feel like keeping on to 2 miles.   So I pushed through the annoyance and pain of not overindulging in food.   It’s always a better result in the end………