Archive for April, 2009

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Keeping On

April 30, 2009

I have been keeping up with South Beach since Monday.   Today was a day off from exercise for me, which I needed.   

I feel pretty good — my blood sugar feels stable and I am eating well.   I am continuing to have frequent cravings for sweets and bread, but I am handling them.

So far I am down 5 lbs total (3.8 from South Beach).   I have 54 pounds to go before meeting my October 2009 goal of 195 pounds.

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Great Day

April 28, 2009

Today I had a great day.

I slept a little late, then I walked to work (about 3.5 miles).   I went to the gym after work – 50 minutes of cardio plus some core exercises.   Then I walked home (another 3.5 miles)!   I stuck to Phase 1 of the South Beach Diet today (day 1) with surprisingly little effort.   I am waiting for the sugar cravings to kick in big time tomorrow.

Today I ate:

Breakfast: Coffee with skim milk, one piece of celery (not feeling that well, but I wanted to eat something so I ate the celery that I was prepping for later in the day)

Lunch: Salad with Tuna, Olive Oil/Balsamic Vinegar, Romaine lettuce, tomatoes, and cucumbers

Snack: Celery with cream cheese, pistachio nuts (1 oz)

Dinner: Scallops, chickpeas, asparagus (all cooked with a little olive oil).

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Beautiful Day

April 26, 2009

It’s a gorgeous day outside.   I went on a 10 or so mile bike ride around my neighborhood and through Prospect Park.   

Eating has not been great.   Yesterday I had two bagels and eggs for breakfast, red curry chicken thai takeout and lots of unhealthy snacks and desserts (including orange juice and limonata) in between.    Today I had iced coffee, half a scone, and a falafel sandwich.   

Starting SBD tomorrow.   Lost 2.5 lbs this week.

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Weight

April 25, 2009

Weight last Monday: 254 (Ahhhhh!   I could not believe that.   Ignorance did not result in bliss.)

Weight today: (with new Tanita scale): 252.4

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Breakdown

April 24, 2009

Last week I woke up and couldn’t stop thinking I had ruined my life.   I looked back over the past five years of my life, beginning in December 2003, when I suffered a serious ankle sprain playing soccer.   After about a month of pain following my injury I went to an orthopedist who told me that I had an large osteochondral fracture in my ankle and that this was the cause of my pain.  He said that I would need surgery to fix the problem.   I decided that I should have the surgery sooner rather than later because I was starting a new job and I didn’t think I could handle waiting.   I was in fairly regular pain, although it was not so bad as long as I restricted myself from all weight-bearing exercise.

In January, I started the South Beach Diet.   I was swimming and doing yoga five times a week.   I felt fantastic and my weight was on the lower end for myself (low 190s – I used to bounce around between 190 and 210).  Then I flew down to Seattle to have surgery.   The surgery I needed was more invasive than I had originally anticipated — instead of drilling the fracture, my doctor recommend that I undergo a newer procedure that would transfer bone and cartilage from a nonweightbearing portion of my knee to the part of my ankle with the fracture.    The surgery was intense and I never felt as though I had quite recovered.   While a lot of the type of pain that I had in my ankle pre-surgery was gone, I still had limited range of motion in my ankle and pain when I flexed my ankle one way or the other.   I also had a significant amount of pain in my knee, which I had never had any problems with prior to surgery.  

Fast forward five years, I spent five years in a law firm working late hours, not working out, and eating take out food.   I gained 50 pounds.   My ankle is still not terribly functional and I still have knee pain.

I felt so angry at myself I actually wanted to harm myself.   I was afraid that I was getting depressed, so I took some Wellbutrin I had laying around.   That was a bad idea- I didn’t realize that crying spells were a side effect.  I just kept crying and thinking that I was really, really depressed.   So I took more Wellbutrin and cried some more.   Then I stayed up all night Saturday researching ankle-related issues on the internet.   The next day I went on a walk with my brother and cried some more, at which point my brother told me that crying spells were a side effect of Wellbutrin and probably compounded by the massive doses I had taken.   

So what have I done post-breakdown?  I finally weighed myself.   I also have stuck followed my workout plan for the week, which has included (so far since sunday) – Weights and toning two days in the gym, 30-50 minutes of cardio three days in the gym, one five mile walk outside, and one two mile walk outside).   Tomorrow I have another session with the personal trainer.   I made an appointment with a doctor I consider to be the best ankle surgeon in NYC. 

I will post some stats next week.

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Workout today

April 18, 2009

Today I had an appointment with a personal trainer. It was a good workout- lots of leg work, mostly using my own body weight. I got very nauseous at the end, which has never happened to me.

Then I walked home from work, which is about 3.5 miles.

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Working it out

April 17, 2009

I’m taking steps to start to lose all of the weight I have gained over the past few years.   My body has overtaken me.   I don’t feel comfortable.   I don’t need to be model thin, but I owe it to myself to feel like I could kick a little ass.